I don't understand me.

Good Morning.

This would probably be an extremely bleak post because that's exactly how I'm feeling right now. Plus I don't have the energy to put up the pretence that I'm happy. I don't know why but this injured knee seems to be a wet blanket to everything I've been doing these few days. Well, for one, it has totally made me hate coming to work in the morning. Yes, I hate going to work. The job that I had loved only a week ago has become my most hated daily activity. I hate having to limp my way to the bus, up the bus, to the train station, up the train, off the train, through transit, up the train again, and the long trail to work. I hate it. Then I hate the small space that I have that they call a desk, and not enough space because I'm making more space for the SKINNY girl beside me to put her things. I thought I was being nice, but now, I am totally pissed off and annoyed. I hate having to put one leg up, while the other down because again, due to the foreamentioned lack of space I have at the office. I hate it. And just, I realized that I need to use the e-mail that I do not have access too on my computer. Now tell me, how pissed off and annoyed would you be? Because I bloody well am. I can't even believe I'm waiting for her to LEAVE before I can do anything on the computer. Because I have been chased off the computer once before. There isn't going to be another time I'm going to get chased off. Once bitten, Twice shy. Or whatever the proverb because I'm too darn lazy to go look it up and make sure that it's correct.

And yes, with regards to my heading. I don't understand me, not at all. I don't understand why I sometimes think that the world revolves around me or that people actually care about me when they obviously don't. Am I that blind to the things around me? I don't understand how blind one person can be, but apparently I am. Hahas. Well, I can't carry on this debate that I've had mentally over the past four years. Well, after shit started happening and all, but it could've been before then I really don't know. Well, Sasa is waiting for me. No, that's not her real name. Remember the no name rule? (: So yes, Sasa's on her way and I need to go for lunch. So I'll be back soon. Probably tomorrow because tonight I'm going to be gaming the whole night. Something to take my mind off reality. Ok, she's here. I'm off, see you!

Amanda Loves You. (: