People don't really change

I don't think I've changed much at all. When I get to the end of the rope, all I want to do is let go rather than hold on and wait for help. Because maybe I know help isn't coming, life isn't a fairy tale.

I once read in a book, indifference is a worse way to hurt someone than hate. Because even with hate, you still feel something. But when you are indifferent, there is just no feeling. 

So many days I wish I had the means to run away. Just leave it all behind. Most days the easiest thought is death because there is no turning back after that. There's no changing your mind and deciding you can live with your current circumstances.