Just another lazy Monday.

Good Morning.

It's only ten past eleven. Another fifty minutes before it's 12, and then another thirty minutes for it's time to head out for lunch and out of this stuffy office. Something has been triggering my nose the entire day. Or rather, the entire morning. Maybe I need some more heat and some sunlight. Should be good for me shouldn't it? (: Although I have been drinking hot warm water. It has helped a little, but I think a little sun could do me some good as well! Anyhow, it has indeed been a lazy Monday morning. Maybe not more lazy as it is boring. I find myself being bored at work constantly during the week now. It's pretty curious seeing as I do, indeed, have a lot of work to be done. Maybe I should ask for more work, hahas. I'm mad I know, but I really do hate not having anything to do. Gives me time to let my mind wonder. And I really, seriously, do not want to do that.

So I'm kind of back to square one with almost everything in my life. Let me list down the things for you. Church. Gaming. and Life. Yeah, that's basically about it. I don't really know where I am with the church now. Sure, I go for weekly masses and devotions. I pray, at most, weekly as well. I talk to him, constantly in my mind. But I don't know. Somehow I feel like I'm not back at square one, but rather, a step behind square one. I don't think there is anything that could make me join another ministry in the church. No, absolutely nothing. I wouldn't mind helping out with activities, like the up coming anointing mass in December. Or maybe the weekly projector project. Which by the way I've decided not to do because I would not subject myself to once again be under the scrutiny of a person, I had rather not have any contact with. I have thought of playing for the Tuesday Mass again. And monthly Friday Mass. But no, my love for music would not be destroyed by something I know I'm not good in. And even if I am determined to pick up the organ again. I wouldn't succumb myself to doing something I had rather not be doing. So basically it's the anointing mass. Yes, I like the people there so I wouldn't mind going the extra mile. It's all about who we love and who we don't isn't it? And they said money makes the world go round. pfffft. But that really is all I can see myself doing in the church anymore. No more Youth Meetings. No more Youth gatherings to attend. Nothing to do with the Youth or any other person that can't look at me in the eye. No. Why put myself through hell when I may even end up in hell in the end. Hahas. So yes, I actually don't mind being one step behind square one because maybe it means I'm away from the material world and closer to God. Possible no? Anyhow, the book, The Heart Breaker, is a good book if you're questioning your faith. Well, maybe not an overly fantastic book to help revive your faith but it does pull at your heart strings and make you aware of some things you may not have been aware of before. It is a good read I must say.

Talking about good reads. The national library has doubled the borrowing rate again! Yes, it is because of the December Holidays. I am so tempted to go borrow 8 books from the library! But I know that mother will be overwhelmed by the number of books which would then crowd her room so I've decided to read finish all the books I have on me, store them neatly and nicely, and then start borrowing more books! And I have decided that I will buy books from the jumble sale every year. That is why I need to start cataloging my books so that I wouldn't buy double copies even if they are at only twenty cents per book. So I really am going to start needing more space. A new cupboard perhaps? If any of you has seen my room, I may need to take down the step up photo, in lieu of a new cupboard. But I know I can't bear to. And if I paste them on my door, I wouldn't hang anything on the hooks. Hahas. So I am indeed in another dilemma. So many questions, so few answers. Hahas. Well, I'll figure it out somehow. Because there is absolutely no way I'm going to stop reading unless I'm broke or suddenly become blind. Which I hope not because I am planning to get a new pair of glasses. Anyway, this concludes my talk of my books. I really absolutely can't wait to read finish all my books! What an exciting goal isn't it? (:

Also another topic I want to bring up is my exercising routine! I swear, ever since I fell down, everything has been messed up! Although I am planning a trip down to the gym on Friday to check it out. And hopefully getting in about an hour of cycling. And muscle building if I can fit it in. Upper body of course, because my lower body would be cycling. And then I was thinking of making Saturday my exercising day. You know, wake up early morning, exercise, lunching with mother and then mass in the evening. But it's not like you don't know me. I don't like doing anything alone aside from going to the ladies. So I am trying to find people to exercise with! Anyone wanna join me? x) But aside from that, I'll try making it every Friday. At least that way, we wouldn't need to rush home to sleep or anything. Because the next day is Saturday. But it's not like we're going to be at the gym till really late. Hahas. They would kick us out! So hopefully it'll work out because omg, I need to lose some weight!

Gaming. I don't know what is up with me! I see them online and I'm resisting the urge to talk to them. So far it's worked a day. I hope it'll work until they forget me. Because no, I don't think I can go through another crying episode brought on by another's actions. I am thinking of dragging Monkey over to Fiesta with me but like Max and her, they'll out level me even before you can say Fiesta. Which actually does suck. Hahas. But it's ok. Wednesday, Saturday and Sundays are going to be my gaming days! How exciting. Hehes. Hope it would take my mind off SoF until the GMs shape up the game or we decide to jump back into the madness. By the way, I've stopped talking to Liyle as well. Yes, you don't want to know the reason. It's stupid, dumb, pathetic, and it's my reason. So yes, leave it alone. Other than that, we, the dynamic trio might start playing Seal Online as well. It looks cute, and I hope it isn't very different from Fiesta. Otherwise, I'm going to have a hard time coping! Hahas.

Anyhow, it is almost 12. Another 12 minutes and then half an hour to lunch! Neither Sasa or the clinic lady has replied me so we'll see how lunch goes. Because I don't think I can survive eating alone with her. I'll scream, cry and go mad. I'm serious T.T So, that's about it I guess. Nothing else important. Nothing else I need to say. So off I go to finish my statistics and I'll see you soon! Tomorrow perhaps. Unless I decide tomorrow is too boring to be blogged about then I'll jump straight to Wednesday. Or if I'm too busy gaming on Wednesday, maybe Thursday. Hahas. We'll see how it goes. But till then, don't miss me too much! Take care and remember, nothing is permanent. Not even your troubles!

Amanda Loves You (: