The first dress and History repeats Itself.

Good Evening!

Be not mistaken that added exclamation mark to be happiness, excitement or even gladness. Because frankly, I'm very far from any one of those emotions. It has only been one day since my last post, but it seems like a whole lot of things have happened since then! But I'll start off with shopping on Friday night first. Because in my opinion, that is the most interesting thing I've got on the agenda. But than again, who cares about your opinion because this is my blog. So if you don't want to know about the first dress, scroll down a paragraph or two (: Be careful not to trip!

Friday evening. It was a pretty upsetting time, especially since all the dresses I had wanted to buy were either to expensive, or did not have the designs that I had wanted. Something more up to date, and not old looking yet keeping the oriental look (: I'm a fussy shopper I know, but only the best when you're a fussy shopper xP Anyhow, I gave up hope after the last second shop we went to where the dress itself cost about $160. The good thing, or the only thing that made me happy was that I could fit into the dress without needing any adjustments made! Well, if you don't know by now, that is a really good thing for me! Sure, it does mean I still need to lose more weight since I'm still using a double L. But at least now, I can fit into the dress unlike before when the dress couldn't even get past my hips! So, we found this tourist shop further down the road and I found one that I liked the design so I tried it on. And it fit! Well, it was a three quarter dress, but the full length one caught my eye. And it's pretty amazing that there was the last one, waiting on the shelf for me. Yes, last piece on the shelf and fits me almost perfectly. So I tried it, fell in love, and bagged it (: After which, we got underwear! They were having this clearance sale at OG, and the underwear had really cute wordings on them! You might see them if you ask, but you would never see them on me. Well, unless you're...me! Hehes. And because it was more than $20, we got a free pearl! Here's the picture I took with my phone. This is indeed my first time posting a picture, so I actually hope you can see it. I mean, if it's too big or too small. Hahas. I'll be posting more pictures in the future, so hopefully after a while, I'll get the hang of posting photos with my posts. Hehes. So yes, there's the pearl. My first pearl (: Mummy says she wants to go buy more underwear to get another pearl. Hahas.

After that we went down to the car and mummy showed me the pictures of a car she was parked next to when she first came in! It was small, yellow and had Winnie The Pooh pictures drawn all over it! It was really really cute! So I'll put them up here so you can share in my post elation over seeing the cute car again. Cute isn't it? Mummy didn't take more comprehensive photos simply because there were other people in the parking lot and they might think she's crazy snapping photos of another car. Hahas. Although I would really love to see that car again. I'll definitely take so much more photos! Maybe this design on my dream Mini Cooper? Hehes. Well, on to the next day then I guess. History repeating itself. I fell down, again. Well, the amazing thing was, I wasn't even looking at anyone or talking on the phone or messaging! So, I was walking, minding my own business and then next thing I know, I found myself on the floor. Pretty funny isn't it? I think I did started to laugh after I got up. Hahas. Well, I continued walking cause I couldn't possibly sit there and cry right? It started to hurt but I didn't really look down at it. And when I did, the only thing I saw was red. Yeah, literally. So I limped my way to work and then the nurse in the office helped me patch it up. And surprisingly, I didn't cry (: It's good cause I didn't make a fool out of myself in front of someone. And it's not good because I've got a higher tolerance to pain. Next thing you know, I wouldn't cry or scream as much as I would when I give birth. Hahas. So, it got patched up and everything else after that was better. We had breakfast, and then did work. It is fun being in the office alone. Peace and quiet. Only me and my music. Mummy came to pick me up after work cause of my knee and then we went home. After which, I lazed around and then went for mass in the evening.

Mass was terrible. Not the mass, mind you. I was feeling pain every time I moved my leg! I mean, where's the no pain in your presence thing in church? Well, it used to happen for me, but not this time. Maybe I am losing my faith, I really don't know. And, frankly, I don't know if I care at all. So well, it hurt horribly. I didn't even touch my bible. I was much too consumed by the pain emitting from my knee cap. After mass it was the ride home. And then, home alone. So I'm off to play some Distro Bots now, since no one's at home and no one's online to play SoF with me.

I'll blog again tomorrow, to let you know if I made it to church or not. Because you know, the whole seeing people I don't like and having to face idiots who are too dumb to stand up for their friends. Yeah, so I'll let you know. And I don't think anyone has found this blog yet. Which is good in a way, so I don't need to be accountable for whatever I say here. Hehes. So I'm off! *poof* See you soon!

Amanda Loves You (:

A week I wish I could forget.

Good Afternoon.

It is 1pm, but I have not yet left for lunch yet. I'm still waiting on Miss Clinic who hasn't called me or messaged me yet. I hope she does get to me before I blow up and murder the person sitting next to me. Yes, this entire week basically does suck to the core. It is times like these that I do wish some person, anyone really, invented the memory eraser for humankind. Because I seriously need it now!

Let's start off with what has pissed me off the most today. Yes, today, not throughout the entire week although the cause wouldn't have changed, only the situation. So I was talking to mother on the phone, about what time I would be meeting her for dinner after work and then suddenly remembered that I needed to write my time in, which I had forgotten to do when I had come to work. So I took out the book and was debating out loud with her what time I had come in. Of course I was debating out loud, I was talking to her on the PHONE. Not face to face or even in my mind! So I was debating with her and then, a voice pipes up from beside me. 'You came in at 9.15am' Sure, it was considerate of her to let me know what time I had come in, but don't you think it was a little rude to interrupt some one's conversation? But no, that's not why I'm so pissed, annoying and irritated at her. It is also because of the fact that she makes a point to remember what time I come in, so as to ensure I don't cheat on my time sheet when she, herself, cheats on the time as well! Now, tell me how pissed off you'd be if you were in my shoes. I'm so pissed now that I have my mp3 on full blast and using both ear pieces because I don't even want to hear her breathe or clear her throat. Because I swear if I hear her clear her throat again, I'm going to scream at her and forcefully force her to drink ten gallons of water until she loses her voice! I have been hearing her clearing her throat for the past two godforsaken months and it has been annoying as hell! I mean, if you have a dry throat, go drink water or at least go see a doctor to get better!

Recent notice is that I'm not having lunch with the Clinic Girl because she's having lunch with her husband. So I'm going to not have lunch today. Nope, no lunch. Ok, maybe I'm going to buy bread but that's it. Because I want to finish this post, and then I'm going to wait until she leaves and see what time she writes in the attendance book. Yes, I'm pissed and annoyed enough to do that. So I guess it's good I had breakfast this morning. And this recent bout of anger has made me less hungry. It's really amazing how the human mind can imagine things that never happened. I can almost see myself slapping her. But I know I would never do that. Because I'm not the type to hit another and I don't want to be in the position to be sued for assault. Although I would love to sue her for mental and emotional distress. Hahas. Ok, that made me smile.

Another recent news is that there's planning going on to get a early Christmas Present for a friend in church. I've been asking around, but anyone with anything that has The Click Five's signature, please let me know! I'm not sure how much I'm willing to pay yet, but do name your price and we'll see how it goes (:

Ok, the anger has vanished. But I do still feel like slapping her. Trust me, the itch is there. I'm just not scratching it. Ok, I'm talking to someone on the phone so I'll end here! I'll be back tomorrow! Take care!

Amanda Loves You (:

To Five Years of Friendship.

To Five years of friendship. This is for you.

The loud horn blew in the distance as Diane sat on the bench, facing the entrance of the train station. It was another hour before her train was due to leave. Her luggage was stacked neatly next to her, on the floor, leaving the seat beside her empty. A brightly decorated box sat silently on her lap as she looked out expectantly; waiting for him. She checked her watch for the fifth time before she turned her attention to the box on her lap. Everything else paled in comparison as she opened the lid of the box, the smell of only him seemed to surround her as she placed the lid on the seat beside her.

She reached in, smiling as she looked fondly upon the first item she picked out. A picture of them, in church, the place where they first met. He had his arm slung around her, both of them smiling into the camera. It probably wasn't the first photo she had of him, but it had been one of the first they took together. She replaced the item, only to pick out the receipt of her first gift to him. She laughed at herself. Her schoolgirl crush still lingering in her heart. A wallet, one she searched high and low for and spent her month savings on. It was her first gift to him, for his birthday. The first year she had met him. She looked up, the images of that night flashing in her mind. How awkward she felt even giving him something after only knowing him for so long. How she blushed when he said thanks. How she wished she had kissed him on the cheek. She laughed at her schoolgirl wishes before she placed the receipt back into the box.

A bottle filled with coloured water, and his name, written with a heart on the I inside it. It was her intention to give it to him. When she declared her love for him; and he returned the feelings of course. But the day never came; even when the fluttering of her heart whenever she saw him never stopped. She tossed it between her hands, admiring how the light reflected off the glass. Just another thing on her list she never got done. She placed it back, careful not to break it before picking up the next thing that caught her eye. A bundle of photos tied together, labelled 'David'. Again, with a heart over the I. Diane shook her head as she recalled the days when she thought was head over heels in love with him. She spent her days thinking of him; missing him. All her friends knew about him; she made sure they knew. It was crazy; she was crazy in love. She carefully took out the knot before looking at each photo. Each photo had him in it, naturally. But none were posed shots. He was either in it as the main person, or the photo just had his face it in. She sighed softly as she looked through the photos. Oh the days when she was naive and thought that he might have loved her too. She arranged the photos neatly together, as she always did, and tied her favorite knot to keep the photos bundled together.

Another horn sounded in the distance; bringing her attention away from her box of treasures. She looked at the large clock above a couple in an embrace. It was only another thirty minutes before her train left. She didn't have much time left, and still he wasn't here. She lost herself in the couple in their embrace before the setting sun behind them made her think of him again. The first evening he brought her up to the roof. The view of the sun she had was almost perfect. She remembered what would have made it perfect. If he was holding her and telling her he loved her. She laughed again. She never did get over him although she always thought she did. She wanted so badly up pull her knees up to her chest, to huddle up every time she wanted to protect herself. But she couldn't. If there was only one time she has to be strong; the time was now. She looked down into the box, noticing her name scribbled onto a piece of folded paper. A Christmas note, along with the present which was tucked away in her luggage. That was his first Christmas gift to her and it was definitely one of her favorites that year. She had previously borrowed the disc from him; and then he bought it for her. And she felt horrible, that she had snapped at him when he asked her if she had bought that disc the week before. But she remembered hugging him; wishing him a Merry Christmas before walking off. Tears in her eyes.

She swiped at her eyes before folding the letter and dropping it into the box. She briefly closed her eyes because she didn't know if she could go on. Goodbye was harder than it looked. She looked at the clock again, the couple had already left. It was only another few minutes before she had to go. And still, he was no where in sight. She reached into the box slowly, her eyes never straying from the clock. Her fingers brushed against something smooth attached to a string. She hooked her finger into the loop and pulled it out. Another Christmas present. She personally thought it was a bad present given his status and her past, well known, schoolgirl crush. But she hung it on her phone anyway, telling everyone and anyone who gave it to her for Christmas. She remembered she used to smile to herself that maybe not all was lost. At least if she wasn't by his side as his girl, she could be there as his friend. Just a special friend like he was to her. And then the rumors got to vicious and he never stood up for her, not even once. She frowned slightly and willed the tears away before she dropped the chain back into the box. She slowly replaced the lid of the box, all the memories surrounding her seemingly being sucked into the tiny little box.

The final announcement filled the train station as wives kissed their husbands, girlfriends kissed their boyfriends and children cried while clinging on to their fathers. She left the box on the seat beside her as she gathered up her luggage and took careful steps towards the train. She had only taken a few steps when someone tapped on her shoulder. "David!" Diane spun around, only to be met by the same blue eyes she fell in love with. "I'm sorry, you left this on the seat." Diane thanked the man softly as she took the box from his hands. Even up till the end, she had to be the one to do it. She looked at the box, small blue hearts scrawled over the box before looking at the trash bin before her.

"Last train headed for London!" Diane bit her lip, like she always did when she was doing something particularly difficult before she walked up to the trash bin and dropped the box carelessly into it. She heard the sound of glass breaking as she turned on her heel, gathered up her luggage and headed straight for the train. She picked up her pace and all but ran onto the train and to her seat. Ironically, her seat had a clear view of the trash bin she threw her lovingly treasured memories into. Diane stared at the trash bin before the final horn sounded as the train made it's departure from the station.

The first tear rolled down her face as the trash bin disappeared from sight. Goodbye is always harder than it looks. As the sun set, Diane looked out the window, up at the stars above. She didn't tell him she was leaving, on his birthday but he didn't miss her. He never missed her. It was all right now; because as the sun set, after five years of friendship, they would be nothing more than mere strangers.

Good bye Elvin.

Words or Patterns?

Good morning!

Well, another hour to lunch but still, Good morning! Please don't ask me why I'm so cheery this morning because I have absolutely no idea. It has so far been a dull morning aside from this morning's silent debate over why people wear skirts with wordings on the back, just at or above the ass.

Why do people do it anyway? I mean, pattern is all right because it's pattern. But words? Well, I was walking to work, minding my own business when this girl walks up from behind me, past me and then in front of me. So I casually looked at her, I mean, you do look at people when you're walking don't you? If you're the type to just walk and look straight ahead, ignore this segment of my post. So as I was saying, I just casually looked at her and then I noticed the word 'Surf' on the back of her skirt, directly on her ass. Pardon my language but I don't see the need to substitute the word; I hardly doubt there are toddlers reading this. So I just felt compelled to stare at the word. I'm not exactly sure why but I was! And no, I'm not a pervert. I just have to look in a mirror to stare at my own ass. Anyway, then another lady walked past me and she was wearing a striped pants. I looked at her ass, because I was doing research not because I was being a pervert! And I found that I wasn't compelled to look at her ass as I was previously with the other girl. And I found that to be really curious. I mean, from my point of view, I'm thinking that it's simply the fact there are words to read whereas on the second girl, it was just a normal pattern you may see every other day. Hence if you actually do wear a skirt or a shirt that has words on it; you have absolutely no right to be offended when someone stares at your chest or your ass. Well, unless of course they're leering and not reading off the words on your shirt or skirt. Hahas. This case still isn't closed yet, simply because I don't understand why I was compelled to look at girl A's ass when I wasn't compelled to look at girl B's ass. Anyone got any comments? There's a blue button for you to hit at the end of the post to leave a comment. Leave your name too! And yes, I'm using the comment space because I'm too lazy to go get another or my original chat box.

Anyhow, I don't understand why you couldn't help another person sign for something while they are busy. And no, it wasn't for a very important thing that the person had to personally sign. Well yes, that person who didn't have to sign was me, and the one who had waited for me to sign, is the person sitting beside me. I mean, she checked the paper and then she asked me to sign. I mean, WTH? Do I look like some spastic kid that doesn't know how to read or cross check that you have got to do it for me and all I had to do was sign where indicated? Please, I may act like a kid but I am by birth 19 years of age. Anyhow, it seems she is more free these days and thus more time is spent on studying. Somehow I wish I could do it too, but there are so many reports that are due. Actually only one for me; but because I need information from the clinics, I can only complete it when the clinics give me the information. This month however has been going on well enough. Hopefully I wouldn't have to come back on Saturday to complete it. Oh, talking about Saturday, they are having a gathering at Ckigu's house this coming Saturday.

Yes, I know I told her that I was going to try and make it even if I was going to be late. But now, I really don't think I would be going. Simply because I've never really liked my Junior College Class and I don't wish to reminisce any bad experiences in school. And no, I don't have any good memories to reminisce about. Hahas. So it's probably a no go and I'll be at home or at work. Doing something, that actually makes me happy. I'm sorry, I liked you a little, but I rather be happy than force myself through at least an hour of pretences.

Anyhow, it's almost lunch and I need to send up the forms to the other department. And yes! She's going for lunch on her own! Ok, evil Amanda but it's ok, I'm happy (: Maybe I should celebrate by having Western today. Hahas. Anyway, I know I also have time to blog like she has time to study. But I complete my work and hand them up on time. It's just weird how she has a little more time but her things are sometimes late. But hey, that's just my bias point of view. Hahas. I'm evil, I know. But before I go, a last birthday wish to a very special birthday boy. Happy Birthday You (: It has been a good 5 years. Maybe I'll find someone else who was as special as you. And on a last note to Dep. If you're reading this, I'm not going to buy those blades. Because I'm looking for the little girl before the blades and I'm not going to find her if the blades come out to play again. So maybe I'll see you around in game or online. So this is me checking out. Take care and as Fergie sings 'Big Girls Don't Cry'

Amanda Loves You (:

Something once lost has now been found.

Good Afternoon.

Yes I am back at work . Unfortunate for me, I couldn't wake up this morning so I arrived late at work today. Another few late nights to cover up the three and a half hours I was late. No more late night watching television. Or until I find a way to make myself able to wake up on time in the morning. Anyhow, as it's only been a few hours nothing much has happened. Only thing I could think about is that I found what I had lost and I'm headed for my second graduation night. Hahas.

I bet you're more interested in my second graduation night than what I had found so I'll just start with that first. Ok, it's not exactly my second graduation night because it isn't even my night at all. I'm just helping someone celebrate it the way I never got to celebrate it. And I must say, I am pretty excited. Well, it's coming up during the end of November so during that week before and week after, I most probably would be working later nights. To cover up the time I wouldn't be here. But it would probably only be half day on the day of the event and then the full day next day. So a grand total of 13 hours. How I am going to work back that much time, I'm not very sure. Need to check if I have any off days during December that I could use to cover up. Because 13 hours is almost impossible. Although I really wouldn't mind coming back on the weekends to work aka Saturday. Because I wouldn't have to see someone who sits next to me day after day after day. So we'll see how it goes. But Saturdays do sound pretty fun don't you think? (: just for the month of November of course. Saturdays are going to start being my gaming days.

The other incident that has been all excited and elated is that I found what I had lost. Which were some invoices that are pretty important and mounting to a total sum of about a thousand dollars. I don't know if it's a good thing my table is small so there are only so many places I could've put it or if my table is too small that I do not have enough places to put my things hence being more susceptible to losing them. Hahas. Knowing me, I'll never find an answer and think through it and re butt myself until I get tired and decide to just let the matter rest. Hahas. But I know you still love me anyway.

On a duller note, I think Chris is ignoring me. Either J hasn't come back or Chris doesn't want to be the one whose always telling me he isn't back from his mission yet. It hurts but with all these new goals I'm making for myself, hopefully they'll keep my mind off him for a while. Because there is no way I can breakdown and cry my eyes out anymore. I'm not in school, where no one cared how puffy my eyes were or how quiet I was. So we'll just have to wait and find out what's happening huh? Maybe I'll get Matt to help me, but he's got enough problems on his own. After everything that he's done for me, I should be the one whose there for him. So enough about this then, let's move on.

Lunch is indeed coming to an end and everyone's returning. Well, more specifically, the one who sits beside me has returned. Hahas. I'm sure I'm making her out to sound like a evil witch. However I do think I'm the much bitch-er one cause well, I'm not exactly the person to not say what's on her mind anymore. Once you've suffered enough I guess you just learn how to protect yourself. Well, I'm off then! I'll try to blog tomorrow although it might seem impossible because I've got mass after work and then by the time I reach home, it'll be late and I need my sleep. Maybe Friday. After shopping. You'll get all the details first! Hehes. So take care of yourself! and I'll see you sooner than you think (:

Amanda Loves You (:

First exciting event at work!

Good Evening.

I am currently watching CSI:Miami on ChannelFive and thus my post would either be very vague or I may lose my concentration half way through my conversations with you. So I may most probably keep this post short and sweet and tell you the most exciting thing that has happened to me!

Amanda, aka me, is going for the SGH Dinner & Dance next Friday, 9 November 2007! Isn't that just exciting! Hehes. Mummy suggested wearing my dark blue lace dress for the dinner; yes, the one I wore for my JC Grad Night. But nope, I wouldn't be wearing it. Simply because the D&D is themed as 'Imperial Night'. We are however going to look for a chinese top! Shopping trip this Friday to Far East! I hope I can find a nice top which would go with a skirt I already have. Because it is simply a waste of money to buy a new top and a new skirt. Hehes. Although it wouldn't be too bad seeing as how I'm planning to throw out my beige flair skirt that has been with me for at least 2 years and is now pretty much torn and tattered. But I assure you it covers me perfectly well. So it hasn't been decided yet but we'll see how it goes this Friday (:

Aside from that, nothing else interesting happened today. Tomorrow's Wednesday so I would probably be doing OT to complete the report that is due next Monday. There's All Saint's Day Mass on Thursday, so I probably wouldn't be able to stay late to complete my work. And it does look like I would have to go back on Saturday but I don't mind, cause I actually do like my work (: And this reminds me, it is some one's birthday on Thursday. Well, I did say no names would be mentioned, but if you know me and you know him, you'll know who I'm talking about x] So yes. I usually do get him a present for his birthday but ever since the rumors surrounding our friendship has become so excessive and insulting that I've decided that maybe, some friendships aren't meant to last or even fought to be kept. So to five years of friendship; happy and turbulent times included; it was good while it lasted. May you have many more, with others who aren't as susceptible as me to rumors. Wish I had a tube of champagne or something to celebrate his birthday and ok, maybe not our failed friendship but, you know, glam look. Hahas.

So it's FashionPolice on ChannelFive now. And a look at the clothes and I really want to move to the UnitedStates. It's just simply because I can wear stuff there that I wouldn't sweat like a pig when I wear it in Singapore. Hahas. And also the different type of clothes. Oh, talking about clothes. I'm making it a point to work out at least twice a week. And even if that gets cut down to once a week, I'm still going to make an effort to do it. Because if I don't, I'm forever going to be sitting here and complaining about being fat. So yes, even if it's slow, i'm DETERMINED to factor exercise into my life. And if you're all for it, do leave a comment. Because I know I do need the support. Hahas.

All right! Next up is CriminalMinds with the ever cute Professor Reed and other eye candy. A girl's gotta find her eye candy somewhere when all she sees at work are married men and married ladies. So I suppose this is about it. I'm headed immediately to bed after the show because it would be almost 1.30am when the show ends and I've got to start work at the same time of 8.30am in the morning! So this is me, checking out. I'll be arranging my room for more shoes as well as cataloging my books tomorrow so I will try my best to blog. If not, I'll promise to do it on Thursday Night (: And a quote from the song SweetEscape, 'It's your fault you didn't shut the refrigerator. Maybe that's the reason I've been acting so cold' I thought that was pretty cute. And if you have no idea what I'm talking about, go listen to that song at a high volume and don't sing! Just listen to the lyrics (: I'm outta here!

Amanda Loves You

A somewhat balanced weekend.

Good Afternoon.

It's been two days since my last post. And not surprisingly, many many things have happened since then. Well, first off, we [being mother and I] managed to almost complete our movie marathon. Tonight will be the last show and then tomorrow, mummy's going to borrow another one or two discs for this week (: So all the shows that we have watched so far, SleepOver, Epic Movie, Scoop, The Pursuit of Happiness, Surf's Up and tonight's movie, The bridge to Tabitha. [yes, the spelling is wrong and I'm too lazy to check or google for the correct spelling. I'm lazy, what are you going to do about it?] So far the movie choices have been good, aside from Epic Movie. It wasn't exactly very entertaining, aside from the times when me and mummy were spotting the movies they were spoof-ing [no, i don't know if 'spoof-ing is even a word.] SleepOver was good. A chick flick for girls crossing the bridge from books to boys [basically from childhood into the teen years; i had wanted to use the line from the movie ok?] Nevertheless, I must say the guy was still cute. Scoop was a really good watch. Hugh Jackman is totally hot. Hahas. I mean, seriously! I don't care how old he is or how young I am, he IS hot xP Anyhow, we watched that show quite late, and mummy didn't fall asleep so it must've been good to have caught her attention. Hehes. The Pursuit of Happiness was a movie that we had wanted to watch ever hearing the good feedback on the show. And it truly was an inspiring and heart felt film. Sure, I don't really like my father much but it was really touching and moving. And I do wonder if you had his desire to be there for me; would everything be different now? There were some parts that I cried but there were also parts that left me in awe. And I must say that the rubick cube in the movie has definitely caught my attention! It was pretty interesting watching him complete it and I actually do want to buy one for myself. Hehes. There was also a special feature on the disc about the rubick cube and OMG! I saw a guy solve the cube with ONE hand. Well, at first he did it in the quickest time possible. After which, he proceeded to do it BLINDFOLDED. And finally, he did it with only one hand. As I was watching him, I felt like the stupidest person ever! Hahas. Bet you would've felt the same if you watched it too. Anyhow, that was about it. After The Pursuit of Happiness on Satrday, Sunday we watched Bones and Happy Hour which we had taped on Tuesday Night. So that was about it for the movie watching part of my weekend.

The next part would then have to be the gaming part. Yes, I've started gaming again. No, I wouldn't be as crazy as I was before simply because I am working now and I just don't have the energy or the time. But it was fun this weekend. Xuan helped me and a new friend, Rain, tank the Bandit Bosses. And I levelled once! Which was pretty amazing seeing as how once you hit level15, levelling becomes the hardest thing ever! Well, that and actually getting your weapon pimped. But since with Dep, I don't need to worry about that. Hehes. On Sunday, I played for a while with Monkey. And I must admit, I do miss spending time with him. Even when he doesn't say anything during our time together. I have never seen anyone just run from one place to another to kill bosses and not say anything. Well, especially since I kept losing him because I was distracted by the Halloween Jacks around the place where I could get candy (: And he was pretty sweet to come running back to find me. Because there are SO many bladers that aside from their hair, they all look the same to me! Hehes. And yes, my mini map doesn't help when I see myself near the orange dot that is suppose to be him and yet I can't see him! Hahas. But it was fun. And it's times like this I wish I was in the US then maybe we'd be able to hang out in real life and actually have more fun. Not to mention, I would love to meet him nephew! New born just a few months ago. But that aside, Dep's on better terms with his girlfriend. I want him to be happy; but I don't know if she's the right one for him. But I suppose that's for him to find out, and I'll just provide the shoulder or the listening ear when he needs it. I'm going to be bitchy and just say this but I hope he doesn't stop pimping my equipment for me. Hahas. And if you're reading this Dep, you know I love you (:

With that aside, on to slightly more serious matters. J isn't back from his mission yet. I believe Chris must be tired of hearing me ask after him. Especially since it's everytime I see him come online, which is everyday. Hahas. Chris said he was delayed, and I hope that's just about it. I really shouldn't dwell anymore on this before I launch into my 'Why Must They Send People For Stupid Reasons' Lecture because I really simply do not understand. Anyhow, moving on!

I need to get out more you know. Anyone out there nice enough to being me out for a night of fun? Because between work and family matters, I am just about going crazy. And yes, I'm serious. Even though I'm not suppose to be doing this, I am blogging at work. And my colleague that is sitting right beside me, is annoying the living day lights out of me. I mean, it's not like she's actually doing something. It's just her being here that annoys me. Ok, I'm certain I sound like a spoilt brat, but she really is annoying! I mean, *ARGH* There are so many things she does that I don't understand. And no, it's not because she's a 'engineering' kind of person because I know people who are in engineering, aka GodSister, who doesn't act like she does! I mean, there are times when she does stuff and I go 'why in the world did she do that?!' As of now, I'm basically ignoring her. Totally and certainly ignoring her. I love my mp3 player as well as my other devices that bring my mind away from this place of sitting right beside her. I don't want to dwell on family matters because I have somewhat found a way to solve some of my problems. As for the rest of my problems, I'll just dump them all into God's hands. He's older, he's wiser and thus is able to solve more problems. As for me, I'm young, naive and am unable to solve many problems. Hahas. Ok, this is me going crazy because I'm trying to refrain myself from screaming at the girl sitting beside me. *breathes in and out* Taking deep breaths and typing as quickly as I can with this horrible keyboard is helping, a little anyway.

Well, as I can see the time on the computer, it is almost just about 5.30pm. Which is time for HER to go! Hahas. Well, I do need to get back to my work because I need to finish everything before next Monday. Reports are due. I'll probably be coming back this Saturday to finish the report, and hopefully I'll be able to finish it before Monday which is when the report is due. Do leave a comment, because I know you're dying to! But don't die though, would be unexplainable and your parents would be really upset and everything. I'm sure if I know who you are, I'd be upset too. So comment but don't die even if you are dying to comment. Ha Ha Ha. Ok, cold joke. Time for me to get back to work and then head home for that last movie! Oh, I'll remember to tell you about my newest and latest plan to get myself off my lazy ass and to start working out. And I have reyrey to thank for that really. The guy, making his gym and all. But I will delve into that in another post. I'll stop here and leave you to your thoughts. Because what is a person without his own personal thoughts? (: Take care and check back soon! Because Amanda has just got back into the blogging scene.

Amanda loves you.