I detest awesome days.

I hate awesome days. After every awesome day I've had thus far, it will definitely be followed by stupid days where you wonder why you even got out of bed that morning. I hate those days because nothing ever goes right. The trouble with keeping a blog is that when you're so geared up to blog about something, you have to go do something else which then makes you lose your momentum and when you get the time to blog, all inspiration has left you. Good news for the new year is that we - mummy and I - both have new clothes and a new hair do! I think new clothes are a constant for me when it's CNY. It's an addiction I allow myself in small controlled amounts. As for the new hair dos, I've got my red streak back! And I managed to convince my mummy to highlight her hair red too! Aside from that, mummy got a new phone because I had to renew my phone plan. It didn't cost us a cent so it was all good! That was my awesome Monday. After that, I had terrible Tuesday and wrongful Wednesday. I hope tomorrow isn't going to be terrible Thursday part 2 because then I don't know how I'm going to survive freaky Friday or sucky Saturday. Well, I'm intending to get up at 8 and if I sleep now, that will give me at least 7.5 if not 6 hours of sleep. I think I'm going to go into work early and then stay late just for tomorrow and Friday. So at least during the three day break I have, I don't have to worry much about undone work. Hopefully this period of stress will aid in my quest in losing weight. I'll be back in another day or so. Instead of writing it all on here, I've learnt to write it in my messages, copy and then paste. That way, I don't stress myself in the process of blogging. Well, I really should go. Be back soon! Amanda loves you (:

So, it has been a while.

I hope this works. So, it has been a while since I was last here. I've always felt like I should have been more faithful but, what do you do when you're so disappointed with the life you are living that just the thought of talking about it makes you sick to your stomach? I can't exactly say my life has got a while lot better where I can start maintaining a blog again but I'm willing to try because despite everything that has happened in my life so far, only writing has kept me grounded or sane at the very least.

Just the other day, while taking with a friend, I realized how silly we used to be (well mostly I, to be honest). How I used to spin stories, extravagant tales. Of pretending how marvellous I was or the events that happened in my life. Those days seem so far away now and although I may have grown up (some what), I think a little bit of silliness has never really hurt anyone.

When I was younger, I thought that life was a game where the weak were put aside while the glamorous were idolized. I must say that sometimes it does seem to be that way. But though the years, I've obviously grown up and realized that life is hard. Life is so hard that there is always people around us to help us get through it. Like, I thought that trust had to be earned while respect was to be given to people in authority. Now, I know (or I feel at least) that trust is to be given as freely as you'd give a hug to a friend while respect was something that you should have for people in authority and even for the people who are your peers or even those who are 'beneath' you. The life lessons I've learnt and experiences I've been though. They make me feel like life is too short to undermine everyone just to further yourposition in life. But ever since I've started working. It feels as though I had simply created this bubble in which I live where everyone played nice and there was always a common goal, to help each other though this thing we have all been subjected to. I know I shouldnt change my outlook because I'm sure the world can use a bit more happiness and kindness in this world. I just wished I had someone to reaffirm me that what I'm experiencing in the work place now is temporary and it is possible to be in a work place where everyone is interested in a common goal and in achieving that common goal with the welfare of everyone involved in mind.

It's almost one am. I'm intending to get up tomorrow at seven am to go swimming. I really should sleep now so there is at least the probability that I might wake up at seven in the morning. I will be back. At most, hopefully it will just be a week. I can hardly continue my stories on the computer now because well, I'm always doing something or another on there. Not to mention how slow the computer is. I will have to convert my stories into word documents first though. And then save them so I can pick up where I left off when I get a new computer. And I should really get going.