Good evening.
Yes, another change in font. Actually, I didn't change the font. I just didn't change it to the one I normally use. I'm still trying to find a fond I'm comfortable seeing. I have not yet started on my next posting chapter for "Will You Stay?" and it is annoying the living day lights out of me, trust me. So it is almost the end of the weekend. Another hour or so before I jump into bed. Going to be waking up early tomorrow to go buy breakfast in Chinatown with mummy. Hopefully the kaya shop is open, otherwise, we'll just have to look else where for breakfast. I haven't actually done much this weekend. I went back to work yesterday morning. It is, unfortunately, once again the end of the month which means that reports are due. And since, my dateline which is on the 5th is a Saturday, my dateline has been shifted up to the 4th. Yes, a day makes a whole lot of difference. Anyhow, I'm going to try my best and hit the deadline. Going to be a whole lot of calling out and running around tomorrow, I must remember to not wear heels. The rest of Saturday was spent watching movies, reading FanFiction and generally doing nothing. I didn't even touch my book because then I would be neglecting my computer. I can't do that now, can I? This morning, Sunday morning, I was suppose to have gone for breakfast with my mother and grandmother but we all slept in. Resulting in a late lunch and then off to church. After which, I have successfully cleared the table beside my bed! More space for my shoes, well, not exactly actually. Only one more shoe, any volunteers to buy me that last pair of shoes?
In the process of clearing, I found a few scribbles of stories to be continue. Quotes to be read, typed in and remembered. Lists for various things I needed to get done. Mostly junk, but at least now I'm not housing them anymore. Out they go! But here are a few quotes and meaningful words. I was sourcing them to be put up in my blog, the one for me and J. Yes, my supposedly eternal paradise. The only hope I have now with him, is that he's still alive and happy. Can true love really overcome everything? Even the horrors of war?
Happiness is something very special,
you can't buy it
you can't sell it
but you can share it with that someone special.
being unhappy, sad and hurt is just the process
happiness is the destination
happiness is like a butterfly which,
when pursued,
is always beyond your grasp.
but if you will sit down quietly,
may alight upon you
only love can hurt your heart
fill you with desire and tear you apart
only love can make you cry
and only love knows why
if you're not ready to cry
if you're not ready to take the risk
if you're not ready to feel the pain
than you're not ready to fall in love
every time we do, we get hurt
then i figured that's why it's called
falling in love.
Three quotes on happiness, and the last one on love. What did you think? I don't know what to think anyone, on this topic anyway. Giving up seems so childish and throwing oneself into loveless relationships seem so immature. How do you do something, without changing who you are at the same time? I am, at this point in time, pretty much willingly to let go of any passing emotions I am feeling until the dust settles and I chart another path for myself. Not seeing certain people, have definitely helped. Maybe I might decide in on an occasional flirting session but my heart's going to be locked up for a while. The key is hopefully going to be with me for longer this time. So far, I've only kept it for over a year and this time, maybe, I'm thinking to at least 2 or 3 years. Yes, after I outgrow this adolescent age.
It is currently, 9.02pm. I think I should log off, and go cuddle in bed with a book or something. Weird dreams have been plaguing me. If they weren't resulting in me waking up more tired than I was before, I would've gladly dreamt them up. So, hopefully the dreams diminish a little. Or at least, revitalise rather than tire me out. Thanks for dropping by again. I should be changing the quotes and layout of this blog soon. Or maybe I should do it now, for a while, before I sleep. Well, thanks for dropping by! Do take care of yourself and I will try and regulate my blog posts. God bless.
Amanda Loves You (:
