Dreams.

Good Evening.

I only just realized that I've got less than a week to enjoy my stress free days. We were planning to go down to SGH on Thursday which would not be possible tomorrow since mother needs to make something before we can go back. So I suggested that we could go next week and she didn't need to be so stressed about it; when she then shattered my carefully built world that next week was the 19th. Oh gods. I sat there for a whole minute, after which my brain caught up and calculated that it was indeed the 19th. It's amazing how time flies so quickly when you're not trained on it? But the moment you stare at the clock for more than a minute, time slows to a crawl. Someone should sacrifice themselves and sit in front of the clock and stare at it. Hahas. And it seems today is the day which Amanda is to be shocked into oblivion because as I was updating my scheduler, i realized that after my last revision class which is PBF on the 30th of April my first FINAL exam is on the 7th of May. OMFG. But on the bright side, at least what I have studied wouldn't have that much time to leak away through the holes in my mind. And who knows, I may just pass my final exams. Heh.

Everyone seems to be getting FaceBook. I couldn't imagine the time when I stared at Natasha when she was talking about FaceBook and went 'What? Are you talking about Friendster?' Hahas. Oh, the good old days. I miss Natasha ._. Not to mention I miss half the people I used to talk to all the time in IJ. Sigh. It seems that when I'm not rushing to try and get a decent grade for my exam, or surrounded by people who are constantly shouting (Fiesta, for those clueless ones) all these feelings come back full force and I have to sit and stare at space for a moment remembering before I can go on. Pathetic. But it really is no harm in missing your friends is there? Anyhow, Miss Jiang is busy with her projects and I should really start preparing myself for the final league towards the finals, and my freedom. I think my trip back to SGH should satisfy myself for sometime and then after the finals, despite work, I'll definitely make sure I have as many outings as possible.

Have you ever had a nightmare and yet didn't wake up because you wanted to know the outcome of the nightmare? I think yesterday's dream/nightmare wasn't really of that nature. Maybe it was due to watching Van Helsing before I went to bed, but the dream/nightmare really did spook me. The images are slowly fading, so I can't recall with exact precision as I did this afternoon, but it did start out as a normal dream. No, not of unicorns and rainbows. I actually dreamt about going back to SGH again. Hahas. Well, I don't really think I want to dive back into my memory for the dream, it's locked away with all the unpleasant things I would rather forget, but am unable to. Although I'm just curious, has anyone ever had a dream/nightmare that you knew wasn't happening but choose not to wake up and see the dream through? I really think I'm awfully weird for being the first.

I think I should try to sleep earlier today. There wouldn't be anyone around to keep me company on Fiesta anyhow, so there's no point in staying up right? I'm far too lazy to level on my own, and I am upset at the rate I'm working through the stones. I don't know I have enough fame to sustain this addiction of mine. Hahas. I think tomorrow, I might start preparations for the finals. I really need to get this down because I really do want that first class honors. I'm sure half the school wants them too, but maybe, just maybe this time I wouldn't let myself down.

Well, I suppose I should end here. I need to go drink water, change, get ready for bed and anything else I feel I might have to do. I'm already yawning, so I don't think sleeping early is going to be a problem tonight. Hahas. Well, thanks for dropping by. I haven't been out much, so there aren't that many random thoughts in my head to blog about. Trust me, I'm always waiting for those random thoughts to return. At least that means I'm like my old self, in some way. Anyhow, I'm off. Thanks for dropping by again, and maybe I'll see you soon [:

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Do dreams foretell your future?

Good afternoon.

Ok, so it hasn't been one day or a week since my last post. But, it has been less than 2 weeks. Hahas. Admittedly, I've been awfully busy with the ongoing [currently over] mock exams and trying to figure out how to balance my reality with my virtual world. Nevertheless, now that the mock exams are over [thank heavens!] I should try and blog more often. I had actually decided to make this blog known, but it seems that no one's really interested in reading. And if you include the factor where I will say what I wish and not stand corrected unless it will cause serious damage, I'm still unsure if I should put this blog up for public viewing. Maybe I should take that leap and plunge into the pool? I'm undoubtly sure that I wouldn't really be offending anyone with what I intend to blog about anyway. How many people can be offended by what Amanda thinks? Well, ok, maybe some but I don't think all of them will. Hahas! I'll tag mavis I suppose, it seems everyone does read her blog [:

Yes, the mock exams are over and I am taking this period [10/03 - 18/03] to satisfy my need for late nights and irresponsible behaviour. I already accomplished this last night, and frankly speaking, don't think I will ever do it again because it shoots my day to hell in one second. So much for satisfying my need to be irresponsible. Just so you know, I slept at 7am and officially woke up at 4.30pm. Hahas. Amazing isn't it? I used to be able to deal with less sleep but maybe your body can't take as much as you grow older. And who said that we are at the prime of their life? At this age, we are either studying so hard for the exams or working to earn money to spend. I think only the ones who are supported by their parents can at least try to have the time of their life. Hahas. Though, I think I'm pretty ok with how my life is now. Maybe clubbing really isn't the thing for me, although I've recently discovered I do like to dance. Hahas. And yes, those of you who've gone clubbing with me, I know it doesn't seem like it but I've always been a shy girl. You should know that by now.

I wonder if a person's dream could be the foretelling of the future, or if it's just our subconscious telling us what they want? I only know of one dream I've ever had that actually did come true. I dreamt that I got caught in the rain in school and when I woke up, I decided to pack an umbrella despite the bright sun and surprisingly enough, it did rain when I was on my way home. Exactly at where I dreamt I was in the dream. Although I felt that yesterday's dream is just my subconscious telling me what I want to do within these few days I have off from the duty of being a diligent student. To go out with my friends, and definitely spend more time with him. Also included is my trip down to SGH. Now that's settled, I should start making plans. It's always too long if I haven't seen my friends for more than a day.

Van Helsing is on Channel5 tonight. Hence I wouldn't be at my computer during most times, only during the commercials. So if you desperately need to contact me, you can try my mobile. Which I will check at periodic timings i.e. when my message keeps ringing every 2minutes. That's all for today, my nose is annoying the daylights out of me and so I'm just going to go sit around and laze and wait till it's time to leave for J8 and then Mass. So, I'll be back soon. That much, I can promise! Toodles!

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