Love, Love, where art thou Love?
No, I'm not doing a spoof on Romeo and Juliet. I actually happen to really love the play and the movie. It doesn't really take a genius to know what I'm actually aiming for. I actually remember reading a quote once, on love of course. Love is a ghost everyone talks about, but only a few has seen. However, I have to question that. Is it really true? Have only a minimal number of earth's population seen Love? Given that there are a varied number of forms love can be represented in today's world, there has to at least be three or more witnesses to each type of love. Love between a parent and a child. Love between childhood friends. Love between colleagues. Hence I'm guessing this love, most certainly has to be that between a woman and a man. And then again, has anyone really been a witness to true love between a man and a woman? I don't know, because I don't think I have yet. Then again, I don't know what true love is, so how would I know if I've ever seen it or not?
When you've found the one who touches your soul, who fills your life and makes you whole, then you have found true love.
I wonder, is it true? It's funny how these quotes are just blurted out without an instruction manual. I mean, how would you know if someone has touched your soul, or if someone has filled your life. After all, isn't the soul a innate part of a person that cannot actually be touched and the fulfilment of your life dependent on yourself? Ok, I'll be less of a pessimist and more of an optimist. So in this case, touching some one's soul would mean knowing that person intimately and yet, still accepting that person for who he or she is? That's my own interpretation, you can find your own somewhere inside your mind. Is that really possible though? Knowing some one's most intimate details and yet still accept that person for who they are? Knowing their faults, their weaknesses, their habits, their past, what they've done that they're ashamed off and still accept them for who they are? But let's throw in something else that everyone has done once or twice in their lifetime. Judgement. Does truly loving someone mean not judging them by what they have done or the choices they have made? If so, can a convicted murderer who feels no remorse be truly loved by someone else? Well, granted none of us are that knee deep in regretful things we've done, but is that what it means? I admit, it bothers me sometimes about the things I've done in the past. The things I've said, the situations I've been in, the things I've done. How can someone else, who knows these things, still chose to unconditionally love me when I don't know how to show myself love? I'm not attributing this to the 'Love yourself before others can love you' theory because really, you don't need to love yourself for others to love you. Your parents love you even if you hated yourself. Your friends love you even if you thought you were the ugliest bint on the face of the earth. People can always love you even if you don't necessarily love yourself. That's my opinion, find your own. Now what would you know if someone has filled your life? Does it mean feeling like there is nothing else life could offer you that would make your life better in the slightest bit? Is that even possible? To have that one person in your life, nothing else could make you happier? Granted we're not talking about children. Children complete your life, it's my opinion. Find your own. To be sure that with that one person by your side, you could brave any storm, face any crisis. From my point of view, that person has to either be a really good catch or reality just hasn't sunken in yet. Ok, maybe I'm now tending more to the pessimistic view given my previous experience. Let's bump the scale back into the light, shall we? You would need compromise, tolerance, communication and forgiveness for it to be actually possible. Compromise when you hit a snag in the relationship where you are both on opposing ends. Without the compromise, you're certain to be happier without the opposing force, your lover. Tolerance when mistakes are made, over and over and over again. Without tolerance, you definitely will be happier if your lover stops making the same mistakes over and over and over again. Communication when things don't turn out the way you had envisioned them to. Without communication, rationale wouldn't let you see a way to work around the situation aside from one scenario, a parting. And finally, forgiveness when we are disappointed and let down by the one we love. Without forgiveness, there will always be a voice whispering in your ear on how you're better off on your own, or with someone else. I must admit, I have fallen into the trap of thinking I could live life forever with just that one person. I say it's a trap because, as you should know, I'm single. Very much so. Maybe it's the initial euphoria, which you mistake for love. It makes you think that all you need is him, and love and you will be ok. I don't look to fault anyone for feeling like that, because I know, at that point in time. Anyone who says it isn't possible, is a lair. A big fat liar. Personally, I feel it might be possible to live just for someone for so long. After that, reality sets in. Your life starts back up. And then whatever happens, depends on you.
Love is like pi - natural, irrational and very important.
That has to be the most intriguing quote about love I have ever read. But I have to admit, it is true. It's natural to love, is it not? When you meet someone, the first thought that normally follows would be acknowledging a new friend found. A new friend made. And if by luck, or by fate, or by pure human nature, your personalities match. The conversation flows like water towards the sea. How often have you realized your lost your heart after you have already lost it? Not many can booast about giving their heart away, because most times, our hearts are stolen from beneath our noses. Isn't it a natural thing to fall in love with someone who you have chemistry with? And no, I'm not talking about in the lab. I have to concur that love is very irrational. Love gives you no reason or explaination. How many times have you asked yourself why you fell in love with a person and came up blank? I know I certainly have just about a million times. I don't know about you, but I'm glad love is irrational. Everything in our lives follow logic, reasoning, common sense. I'm actually thankful there isn't something there is a direct answer to, although I have to admit, I have wanted straight answers for love before. I actually still do, but I am glad I don't have any. Where is the fun in life if everything happened in a logical sequence? No one actually needs to be told that love is important. Why? Because if love wasn't important, everyone in the world wouldn't be looking for love. I can only assume it's safe to say that sometimes, I wish we didn't need love.
Love is patient and kind, it is not jealous or proud. Love does not keep a record of wrong but delights in the truth.
Direct from the bible. It's not an exact word for word quote simply because it's 2am in the morning and I am too lazy to drag myself across the room to get the bible. Because once I touch my bed. It's good night for me until I wake up. Love is so many things. Although if you have noticed, love always appeals to the better nature in us. Patience. Kindness. Truth. and as previously mentioned. Tolerance. Forgiveness. Compromise. Maybe that is why we need love. Without love, there is nothing to appeal to our better nature. If colleagues didn't love one another, in a platonic way, everyone would be going out of their way to undermine the other person just to aid in their own personal corpate climb. If friends didn't love one another, again in a plationic way, who would we ever trust when we're in need of a listening ear when there is a high possibility of the secret being made known to the world in exchange for a favour, or even used as blackmail? If teachers didn't love their students, who would turn them from their misdeeds and then, who would run our future countries? I guess love really is important. Sure, you might argue that materialist things have a pull towards our better nature but love essentially, is suppose to be given freely. Although if there are any critics out there, against love, I'd like to hear your arguments. It's always nice to have a stimulating debate.
Is it wrong to be jealous of a girl I have never met? Is it wrong to be jealous of a girl whose going out with a guy I'm not even dating? After thinking about it for a day and a half, I'm beginning to think I'm out of my freaking mind. We're worlds apart. It's not merely a spoken truth, it's a fact and quite literal. The future is hardly bleak, it's almost non existent. I knew though, from the very beginning. Nothing could come of this. And yet now, I'm straining my eyes just to type this because, my heart isn't settled. And it will not settle until I give it what it wants. It doesn't want you, it wants me to confront you about my feelings. These feelings that are screwing me up so badly, I hardly recoginze myself anymore. I have tried to stay away, you know. Those two days were hell. Not literally, it was actually quiet peaceful those few days. I just, felt extremely restless. As I am feeling now. It always happens when I'm away from you for too long. It seems you've become my addiction. Not a strong addiction, I'm sorry. A few more days, the restlessness will cease. The thoughts of you will grow dim. I would have settled into a false sense of security because the moment the chat box opens up. My heart springs free and the feelings overwhelm me to the point of breaking. It's getting harder to keep the truth from you, but it is a must. Until I figure out what I am truly feeling. The rush of wanting to be in love again. The need to be in love again. Or simply, because I do, love you. I should be thankful, that you do not initiate any conversations between us. Except, I'm not all that thankful, not really anyway. Until I decide when the confrontation will be, my Smile, Nod, Pretend tenique with you has to hold because if this leaks out before I'm ready. The world as I know it, could literally be blown off its axis. So until then, my mystery boy, I'll just sit here and dream of you, while you dream of your dream girl. Well, I should be going now. It is almost 2.15am and I need my rest. Work is starting in about a little over 30hours and I do need all the energy I was supposedly suppose to have garnered over the long weekend. I will be back soon, hopefully. My gaming life has taken a hike, as usual when things get busy around here. I will start blogging reguarly again, as soon as my life settles down and I get back into the groove of things. But until then. I thank you for your patience. And I will see you again soon. Thank you for dropping by, and taking the time to read. Take care, and God bless.
Amanda Loves You (:
